December, 2010
I feel awful. No one wants to meet with me and no one is returning my phone calls. Perhaps Nancy’s message had been shared with others and talking with me may place them in harms way? Just thinking too myself; it is an old and invaluable habit. Boy I could use some Key Lime Pie right about now.
A lot of questions are running through my head about next steps. There are too many to think about as my head is pounding and my stomach is feeling like it wants to cramp up, like the kinds of cramps you get with a colonoscopy. I think I better see a doctor.
At the doctor’s office the diagnosis: Nothing! But I am obviously feeling a little “stressed out” about something. “Yep!” was my response. I went home. I called in sick for four straight days. I was depressed beyond anything I had ever felt before. My wife was truly concerned but I couldn’t tell her what was going on, even when I didn’t fully know what was going on. Christmas was coming soon and I had to do some shopping, finish some reports at work and buy a tree for the living room. Getting back to normal was my first and last objective for the week.